Didja?

Maybe I was just really showing the opposite of what I truly feel in the hopes of fooling myself. I do not want to make a facade and mislead people of who I really am. I am both what I show. If I express the very opposite of what I feel that’s because I don’t want to succumb to my own feelings. I do not want to be a slave of my own emotions. I think it’s enough that I accept my own flaws and understand it in the extent of how I want to understand it. No one cannot question me and no one has the right to judge me. I may come out as outgoing and witty person, sometimes, carefree and seemingly happy even though I am precisely feeling anything but. My reality varies according to how I view the world. each day. If I’m pissed then everything else looks a bit different, and I get irritated in simple actions. If I’m sad I listen to emo songs and write poems. And sometimes I simply cry. But most of the time, I’m perfectly all right. I love to smile, crack jokes and be silly. I’m glad that I can make people happy. I think that’s what most important.