The LoveLove Project

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May 18, 2009

BGM: Arco; Perfect World

I think I’m in love with love itself. I don’t know if it’s a good thing or not. But thinking about love in general makes me a bit happy. I used to be a cynic. A non-believer. Because I’ve seen a love that became darker and twisted. It shaped my disillusioned concept of the four letter word L-O-V-E. But, ever since I’ve started loving love, I feel light hearted. I just hope that soon love will find me. Somehow, I don’t want to sit around and just wait for it to come by nor do I want to search the feeling of connection in every unmarried man I meet on the street. Love is strange. They say, “The quickest way to receive love is to give love and the best way to keep love is to give it wings”. How do you let love fly? I’ve just planted my seed of love, in time, it’ll grow; little by little. I need to be patient now and not lose faith in love. Because I believe that my love will find its way to you.

The LoveLove Project

© dcec April2009

Intro:

This idea was brewing in my brain for the longest time but I’m too lazy to actually give writing short stories a try, so this piece, I wanted it to be kind of personal. This is supposed to be my journey in finding my love, whatever that is. Technically, I mean love of the opposite sex but since I started becoming a proper tax payer I’ve actually stopped mulling about the thing they call love. I’ll be posting two finished chapters and hopefully, I’ll be able to continue this and thus, indeed, a journey of finding love. ♥Yan♥

The Love-Love Project

A Diary of Finding Love

Do you find love?

Or love does find you?

I say, “This is the day I’m gonna fall in love!”

If only it would materialize.

So, I say it again differently,

“This time, I’m really gonna fall in love!”

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April 29, 2009

BGM: Lene Marlin; Another Day

Pilar, on “By the River Piedra, I Sat Down and Wept” said:

“A fall from a third floor hurts just as much as fall from a hundredth. If I have to fall, may it be from a high place.”

To love is to hurt but it’s part of the gamble that eventually in the end balances itself. I’ve never been in love. That’s the problem. Twenty three years has passed and when I look back in my teenage years, I felt I wasted it all. I wasn’t ugly. Sure I don’t really look as pretty as most celebrities but I’d like to believe I’m enough to be described as cute. But no one wanted me, actually that’s beside the point, because I never wanted anyone at that point in time. Sure there were crushes but they only went as far as they can go; which was to remain as crushes. And so, year by year I watched my friends being taken away by their very own princes. I was fine with it until recently I realized how incomplete my life had been because I didn’t let love in. Maybe I was naïve. I overlooked the most important thing in this world just because I had other concerns; irrelevant and trivial worries.

But I’m ready to embrace love. In all its entirety; the hurts, the smiles, the heart thumping and the excitement along with the pain, tears and hurts. All of it, I am ready to accept. Because it’s alright to fall. It’s alright to bleed. It’s alright to cry. It’s all right, in the name of love.

Wherever you are, whoever you are; let your love find its way to me and let my love find its way to you…